We buried you today…
Why do I have to say those words?
Why can’t you wake me up from this nightmare and tell me you’re okay?
I need you to be okay, I can’t lose anyone else, especially you. You were my rock, you were always supposed to be there, you pushed me to do better and be better so why would you turn around and do this?
You couldn’t have. Please just tell me you’re not gone.
The only thing I feel now is the pain momentarily tearing through my skin, trying in vain to wake myself up from this nightmare, but they just stitch me up as if to say sorry little girl this is reality, you have nothing to wake up from.
So I keep pushing that blade deeper and deeper pleading, begging myself to wake up so I can see you on the flip side. But I can’t, I’m stuck in this reality, I’m left in this hell where I can’t get to you.
And I need you so much right now.
Please. Please let me wake up from this.